just been invited to another blog site by a friend...while i can't barely maintain this blog these days, i still signed up for it..i'm such a sucker...my bf ignored me today...might as well have none...say mo? Kidlat? hee heee damn, he's still a cutie.

Learned Conditions
No human relation gives one possession in another—every two souls are absolutely different. In friendship or in love, the two side by side raise hands together to find what one cannot reach alone.

I once read a story about racial prejudices. The mother saw how her son instinctively hugged his black nanny upon their first introduction. The Mother remarked how prejudices are learned by children through their parents.

It came back to me when, I was bored one day waiting for my friends to arrive, that I went online and checked my Friendster account. In my long wait, I entered almost every person in my first degree friends---that then I came across Jas’ account and saw a message in one of her pictures. It said “Happiness is a Learned Condition.”

I thought that was a neat statement.

I once thought that if God gave man his free will and enabled man to make choices--- I wondered if my happiness can be something I can will to happen----something tangible that the choice eventually would manifest itself.

If I would want something badly---would it eventually be a reality?

But if a person can have anything she wills---who takes into account the actual making of the choice itself? I mean, should I be careful of what I wish for? Or are our life choices something subconscious that the actual making of a choice is blurred between reality and wishful thinking? Who then should I blame if my choice is misguided? If happiness was a learned condition-----a will-----a conscious choice-----then why the hell is half the people I know have miserable lives, or wanting to live another, or feeling left out, or feeling like they’re living a life they don’t want to live?

Economics? Life choices gone bad? Or is everything as it should be?

Is discontent the most natural of all selfish desires/feelings of man?

Without the theatrics, would our lives be meaningful? When we have fights with our significant other, do we do so because there’s a problem or because sometimes a good argument is better than a seemingly “harmonious” relationship?
I once remarked “That’s boring!”, in surprise and disbelief and even in mockery with a little hint of sarcasm, when a guy friend said that he had never had an “argument” with his girlfriend of six months

With the rate I’m “arguing” and the “dramatics” that my friends witness with my Y0---he (the guy friend) would probably give my boo a medal for sticking up with me. Or is just my tendency to argue and complain a manifestation of my being a spoiled brat that’s honestly acknowledging the bitchiness that is in me? Or was Theatre the career choice I failed to make? Whatever.

If life and happiness was a learned condition----somebody please throw me the guidebook.

But then again, I might just boomerang it back to you. Beyotch!!!

trying to figure out what to blog...listening to pinikpikan...well, the mind wanders....and is in peace..

i had a dream recently that when i woke up i had a line in my head...

"I wished that I learned early on in life that insecurity was just a state of mind."

Go figure.

A day in Guimaras was worth the long trip. Such fun!



BG's Fiesta...The Bar was all one could remember....Cheers!!!

saw sponge bob...by the time I went out, my bf had to be a volunteer fireman...their office was close to a burning building...so iwaited in ground coffee...ate fettucine...waiting...then went to a computer station...waited...now he's here

Diploma Blues

Two years after graduating from U.P. I finally got the chance to get my diploma. Travelling back to U.P. Miami was interesting---the roads are better (no more craters!!!!) and the houses are getting fancier....now that I have my diploma, the sense that you've made it wasn't there at all.

Still bored and unemployed.
The years are depressing.

Sometimes na lang.
Kung minsan masaya na rin.
You make life work for you or else the psycho wards in this country will be full.
Even my blog is lack luster.
Haaaay.

Turned 23 last Feb 27 and still...nothing to show for it...haay

...oh wait, this is the first that my father is actually home for my birthday

and he's still with me (who? go figure! Beyotch!!)

with my most loyal companion

hmmm...finals is over but the load is still killing me...i'm counting down the days to freedom that only summer can bring me....this is my reprieve...haaaay

We tell stories of our lives---sometimes in narratives---some in anecdotes---and often hide the emotions and dramas in the nervous laughs and lame jokes we unsuccessfully make.

We also tell the story of our lives in the pictures that stack up in the little forgotten corners of our cabinets. My father one day remarked with great amusement about the hundreds, maybe thousands of pictures that document the stages of our lives. My mother said itwas because he used to ask for pictures when he was away (he’s a seaman).

But if there is something I wish the pictures could do? Capture my mother’s unabashed and unconscious smile...my sister’s emotions reflected in her eyes…my father’s smile…my dogs enthusiasm and kikay dramas…nike’s “queenly gaze”….puma’s “I’m so tired/leave me alone look”…amor’s “I’m hungry/deprivedof food for this hour look”…and bonita’s “look at meI’m cute but when I turn around I’m just a bitch”look…gosh! The pictures that could bring a rush of emotions….hope they’ll come soon!!!

This is what I feel like doing these days...sticking my tongue out!!!

next wweek na yung prelims sa law...hay!! Another few days of sleepless nights again... nakaw lang ang blog na to...my friends are waiting in McDo now...tada!!!

HAAY!!!

Hah! Two days of no class because of the nation wide strike against oil price hikes and all I can think about is Civil Procedure and Administrative law! The latter I can handle, but the former…well, so far I find it boring as hell. I’m readingwithout any tinge of emotion on this subject. My teacher

in Legal Counseling tells us that Civil Procedure IS boring, and that you only get to appreciate it when you get to practice law. Well that really didn’t help me at all. Haay!!!

My current state of emotion is also draining my romantic energies. My ex (that’s what I call my current boo) asked me a very---shall we say---“malaman” na tanong last night. I told him that it was almost celestial. But I got his point. He didn’t with mine. Haay!!!

School is ordinary…love life is….home is better. My doggies keep me company…at least

I have something to be happy about….Haaay!!!!

AMOR and BONITA

PUMA

NIKE

(P.S. Any news on Kawayan people?

On Lino Cayetano maybe? On you??!!!???)

After an exhausting first semester of my second year in law school…ngayon ko lang talaga na feel na I’m a law student…Not that I was slacking in my freshman year but the saying that your second year is the toughest “daw” is quite true. Maybe I’d change my own opinion when I reach the next level. Anyway, I haven’t blog in ages!!! I miss this…Most of the time I write about the most mundane things but what the heck…this blog was meant as a pleasant diversion in my boring life…

So many things have happened!!! As usual my dearest Kawayan is getting more and more press coverage and if you check out the chatrooms of Pinoys…a lot of girls are screaming for info on the guy…Sure, there’s without a doubt that the first thing that attracted me to the guy was his striking good looks…but after awhile good looks doesn’t quite cut it for me anymore….I have a standing admiration for all artists in general (writers, painters, photographers, etc) and once you get to know what kind of art Kawayan De Guia does…well, it starts to be interesting….to say the least, his being a Buddhist is reflective in almost all his works being highlighted in the Art exhibits and contests he joins in… I don’t quite understand it…perhaps because pictures on the net don’t do justice on his works…I have yet to see one or any of his works in person…punta kaya siya ditto sa Iloilo??? (wink wink heee heeee Kilig factor to the Max).

Anyway, what’s new---what’s new? Gutsy Tuason just published a new book called Bahura if I’m not mistaken. It means coral reefs I think. He looks older but happy with Amanda in his interview with F. Haaay!!!

Wish for the day: Punta ng Baguio….Haaay…will anyone invite me please? A free trip and all wouldn’t hurt..I won’t complain..I promise..heee heee (wink wink)

(P.S. Make this my life’s wish...ever)

My babies are getting cuter everyday...Puma lost a lot of weight...I'll post pics next time...they're just the cutest bunch!!! Hay, I'm a certified dog lover and I'm proud of it!!!

After an exhausting first semester of my second year in law school…ngayon ko lang talaga na feel na I’m a law student…Not that I was slacking in my freshman year but the saying that your second year is the toughest “daw” is quite true. Maybe I’d change my own opinion when I reach the next level. Anyway, I haven’t blog in ages!!! I miss this…Most of the time I write about the most mundane things but what the heck…this blog was meant as a pleasant diversion in my boring life…

So many things have happened!!! As usual my dearest Kawayan is getting more and more press coverage and if you check out the chatrooms of Pinoys…a lot of girls are screaming for info on the guy…Sure, there’s without a doubt that the first thing that attracted me to the guy was his striking good looks…but after awhile good looks doesn’t quite cut it for me anymore….I have a standing admiration for all artists in general (writers, painters, photographers, etc) and once you get to know what kind of art Kawayan De Guia does…well, it starts to be interesting….to say the least, his being a Buddhist is reflective in almost all his works being highlighted in the Art exhibits and contests he joins in… I don’t quite understand it…perhaps because pictures on the net don’t do justice on his works…I have yet to see one or any of his works in person…punta kaya siya ditto sa Iloilo??? (wink wink heee heeee Kilig factor to the Max).

Anyway, what’s new---what’s new? Gutsy Tuason just published a new book called Bahura if I’m not mistaken. It means coral reefs I think. He looks older but happy with Amanda in his interview with F. Haaay!!!

Wish for the day: Punta ng Baguio….Haaay…will anyone invite me please? A free trip and all wouldn’t hurt..I won’t complain..I promise..heee heee (wink wink)

(P.S. Make this my life’s wish...ever)

My babies are getting cuter everyday...Puma lost a lot of weight...I'll post pics next time...they're just the cutest bunch!!! Hay, I'm a certified dog lover and I'm proud of it!!!

www.Which one am I? (wink wink)

All of us Blog. All of us are law students. All of us are Beyotchs!!! (wink wink)

The Quote I can quote Verbatim: The heart has its reasons which reason does not know. (Blaise Pascal)


This gorgeous baby is Nike!!!! If I could have a mini me in the dog's world---she would be it! Haughty, demanding, bitchy and well...lovable? heee heee Oh wait, slightly unpredictable too!! :-)

WHAT

...is in your closet that you treasure most?
-perfect fititng jeans

...song that makes you wanna dance?
-i'm coming out

..do you bring anywhere with you?
-phone and money

...do you do first upon waking up?
- check out the time

...time do you usually go to sleep?
-around midnyt

...is the scariest movie ever?
--chuckie

...makes you tremble/weak on the knees?
--fever? the anticipation of a great kiss? scary movies..

...type of clothes do you like wearing?
-jeans and black tops

...part of your body do you adore?
-nada---oh wait, my mouth????

...have you done to pamper yourself lately?
-wah

...is your sleepwear?
-pajamas, old shirts, my sis' shorts

...do you want to add up to your room?
-space, lots of it...plasma tv, more books, framed photographs, etc.

...would you rather have -coffee or iced tea?
-iced-tea, better yet--some chocolate please

...is your best trait?
-my sarcasm and unbridled tongue

...would you rather do -go out or sleep?
-go out!! i've gotten fat because of sleeping too much

...would you rather engage yourself into-basketball or scuba diving?
-scuba diving (that is if I can get over my fear of going underwater)

...is a romantic date for you?
-don't know...that's my bf's problem

...brings you to tears?
-frustration, anger, loss, myself?

...do you think of long-distance love affair?
-it works for some people

...was the last movie you watched in the theater?
-feng shui

...do you prefer- jeans or skirt?
-jeans

...do you do -jog or swim?
-jog (ages ago)

...name would you rather have?
-Mrs. Kawayan de Guia? (please lord..i wish!)...Mrs. Lino Cayetano? (wink wink)...or maybe Kenshin or another German sounding name like mine

...makes you lose your temper?
-myself and others

...food are you craving for lately?
-good old Pinoy food baby!

...the world needs now?
-tolerance!!!

It's so me:

Rons, you follow your heart when it comes to success

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

Fr: Emode

lizards....i have a weird desire to photograph them in the last 2 days...don't know why...but somehow their positions are...well, "provocative"....is it me or am i getting weirder everyday?----i think it's the combination of this coming finals week and well---just being me...wala talagang magawa...anything to distract me from hitting the books...what's up with the weather these days?!!! even my mood swings are no longer swinging...they're intergalactic almost in their drama...ahahay!!!

now that i have someone to share a part of my life with i realize a few things:

1. your friends either approve of you or they give you a pained expression (luckily i belong to the former)
2. my sarcasm is now in full force...a spice of life
3. i sometimes play with my bf's emotions...childish? sure...but sometimes i do it just for the heck of it...life is more interesting that way...our late night conversations now have a topic to focus on
4. my friends are getting bitchier (i know, the word doesn't exist...somebody sue Mr. Webster please)....but when you're surrounded by young, ambitious, would-be lawyer girlfriends...you get to ask yourself this question---"are they a reflection of me?"----hell, yeah!!!
5. one of the joys of blogging is when you're friends start to blog too....she doesn't only seem funny when i'm with her...but she really is!!! check out PrettyCrabbyLucy....she's hilarious!!!
6. and finally, i'm feeling law school these days...the pains...the joys...and the curses...i'm definitely "in"