Diploma Blues

Two years after graduating from U.P. I finally got the chance to get my diploma. Travelling back to U.P. Miami was interesting---the roads are better (no more craters!!!!) and the houses are getting fancier....now that I have my diploma, the sense that you've made it wasn't there at all.

Still bored and unemployed.
The years are depressing.

Sometimes na lang.
Kung minsan masaya na rin.
You make life work for you or else the psycho wards in this country will be full.
Even my blog is lack luster.
Haaaay.

Turned 23 last Feb 27 and still...nothing to show for it...haay

...oh wait, this is the first that my father is actually home for my birthday

and he's still with me (who? go figure! Beyotch!!)

with my most loyal companion

hmmm...finals is over but the load is still killing me...i'm counting down the days to freedom that only summer can bring me....this is my reprieve...haaaay

We tell stories of our lives---sometimes in narratives---some in anecdotes---and often hide the emotions and dramas in the nervous laughs and lame jokes we unsuccessfully make.

We also tell the story of our lives in the pictures that stack up in the little forgotten corners of our cabinets. My father one day remarked with great amusement about the hundreds, maybe thousands of pictures that document the stages of our lives. My mother said itwas because he used to ask for pictures when he was away (he’s a seaman).

But if there is something I wish the pictures could do? Capture my mother’s unabashed and unconscious smile...my sister’s emotions reflected in her eyes…my father’s smile…my dogs enthusiasm and kikay dramas…nike’s “queenly gaze”….puma’s “I’m so tired/leave me alone look”…amor’s “I’m hungry/deprivedof food for this hour look”…and bonita’s “look at meI’m cute but when I turn around I’m just a bitch”look…gosh! The pictures that could bring a rush of emotions….hope they’ll come soon!!!

This is what I feel like doing these days...sticking my tongue out!!!

next wweek na yung prelims sa law...hay!! Another few days of sleepless nights again... nakaw lang ang blog na to...my friends are waiting in McDo now...tada!!!

HAAY!!!

Hah! Two days of no class because of the nation wide strike against oil price hikes and all I can think about is Civil Procedure and Administrative law! The latter I can handle, but the former…well, so far I find it boring as hell. I’m readingwithout any tinge of emotion on this subject. My teacher

in Legal Counseling tells us that Civil Procedure IS boring, and that you only get to appreciate it when you get to practice law. Well that really didn’t help me at all. Haay!!!

My current state of emotion is also draining my romantic energies. My ex (that’s what I call my current boo) asked me a very---shall we say---“malaman” na tanong last night. I told him that it was almost celestial. But I got his point. He didn’t with mine. Haay!!!

School is ordinary…love life is….home is better. My doggies keep me company…at least

I have something to be happy about….Haaay!!!!

AMOR and BONITA

PUMA

NIKE

(P.S. Any news on Kawayan people?

On Lino Cayetano maybe? On you??!!!???)

After an exhausting first semester of my second year in law school…ngayon ko lang talaga na feel na I’m a law student…Not that I was slacking in my freshman year but the saying that your second year is the toughest “daw” is quite true. Maybe I’d change my own opinion when I reach the next level. Anyway, I haven’t blog in ages!!! I miss this…Most of the time I write about the most mundane things but what the heck…this blog was meant as a pleasant diversion in my boring life…

So many things have happened!!! As usual my dearest Kawayan is getting more and more press coverage and if you check out the chatrooms of Pinoys…a lot of girls are screaming for info on the guy…Sure, there’s without a doubt that the first thing that attracted me to the guy was his striking good looks…but after awhile good looks doesn’t quite cut it for me anymore….I have a standing admiration for all artists in general (writers, painters, photographers, etc) and once you get to know what kind of art Kawayan De Guia does…well, it starts to be interesting….to say the least, his being a Buddhist is reflective in almost all his works being highlighted in the Art exhibits and contests he joins in… I don’t quite understand it…perhaps because pictures on the net don’t do justice on his works…I have yet to see one or any of his works in person…punta kaya siya ditto sa Iloilo??? (wink wink heee heeee Kilig factor to the Max).

Anyway, what’s new---what’s new? Gutsy Tuason just published a new book called Bahura if I’m not mistaken. It means coral reefs I think. He looks older but happy with Amanda in his interview with F. Haaay!!!

Wish for the day: Punta ng Baguio….Haaay…will anyone invite me please? A free trip and all wouldn’t hurt..I won’t complain..I promise..heee heee (wink wink)

(P.S. Make this my life’s wish...ever)

My babies are getting cuter everyday...Puma lost a lot of weight...I'll post pics next time...they're just the cutest bunch!!! Hay, I'm a certified dog lover and I'm proud of it!!!

After an exhausting first semester of my second year in law school…ngayon ko lang talaga na feel na I’m a law student…Not that I was slacking in my freshman year but the saying that your second year is the toughest “daw” is quite true. Maybe I’d change my own opinion when I reach the next level. Anyway, I haven’t blog in ages!!! I miss this…Most of the time I write about the most mundane things but what the heck…this blog was meant as a pleasant diversion in my boring life…

So many things have happened!!! As usual my dearest Kawayan is getting more and more press coverage and if you check out the chatrooms of Pinoys…a lot of girls are screaming for info on the guy…Sure, there’s without a doubt that the first thing that attracted me to the guy was his striking good looks…but after awhile good looks doesn’t quite cut it for me anymore….I have a standing admiration for all artists in general (writers, painters, photographers, etc) and once you get to know what kind of art Kawayan De Guia does…well, it starts to be interesting….to say the least, his being a Buddhist is reflective in almost all his works being highlighted in the Art exhibits and contests he joins in… I don’t quite understand it…perhaps because pictures on the net don’t do justice on his works…I have yet to see one or any of his works in person…punta kaya siya ditto sa Iloilo??? (wink wink heee heeee Kilig factor to the Max).

Anyway, what’s new---what’s new? Gutsy Tuason just published a new book called Bahura if I’m not mistaken. It means coral reefs I think. He looks older but happy with Amanda in his interview with F. Haaay!!!

Wish for the day: Punta ng Baguio….Haaay…will anyone invite me please? A free trip and all wouldn’t hurt..I won’t complain..I promise..heee heee (wink wink)

(P.S. Make this my life’s wish...ever)

My babies are getting cuter everyday...Puma lost a lot of weight...I'll post pics next time...they're just the cutest bunch!!! Hay, I'm a certified dog lover and I'm proud of it!!!

www.Which one am I? (wink wink)

All of us Blog. All of us are law students. All of us are Beyotchs!!! (wink wink)

The Quote I can quote Verbatim: The heart has its reasons which reason does not know. (Blaise Pascal)


This gorgeous baby is Nike!!!! If I could have a mini me in the dog's world---she would be it! Haughty, demanding, bitchy and well...lovable? heee heee Oh wait, slightly unpredictable too!! :-)

WHAT

...is in your closet that you treasure most?
-perfect fititng jeans

...song that makes you wanna dance?
-i'm coming out

..do you bring anywhere with you?
-phone and money

...do you do first upon waking up?
- check out the time

...time do you usually go to sleep?
-around midnyt

...is the scariest movie ever?
--chuckie

...makes you tremble/weak on the knees?
--fever? the anticipation of a great kiss? scary movies..

...type of clothes do you like wearing?
-jeans and black tops

...part of your body do you adore?
-nada---oh wait, my mouth????

...have you done to pamper yourself lately?
-wah

...is your sleepwear?
-pajamas, old shirts, my sis' shorts

...do you want to add up to your room?
-space, lots of it...plasma tv, more books, framed photographs, etc.

...would you rather have -coffee or iced tea?
-iced-tea, better yet--some chocolate please

...is your best trait?
-my sarcasm and unbridled tongue

...would you rather do -go out or sleep?
-go out!! i've gotten fat because of sleeping too much

...would you rather engage yourself into-basketball or scuba diving?
-scuba diving (that is if I can get over my fear of going underwater)

...is a romantic date for you?
-don't know...that's my bf's problem

...brings you to tears?
-frustration, anger, loss, myself?

...do you think of long-distance love affair?
-it works for some people

...was the last movie you watched in the theater?
-feng shui

...do you prefer- jeans or skirt?
-jeans

...do you do -jog or swim?
-jog (ages ago)

...name would you rather have?
-Mrs. Kawayan de Guia? (please lord..i wish!)...Mrs. Lino Cayetano? (wink wink)...or maybe Kenshin or another German sounding name like mine

...makes you lose your temper?
-myself and others

...food are you craving for lately?
-good old Pinoy food baby!

...the world needs now?
-tolerance!!!

It's so me:

Rons, you follow your heart when it comes to success

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

Fr: Emode

lizards....i have a weird desire to photograph them in the last 2 days...don't know why...but somehow their positions are...well, "provocative"....is it me or am i getting weirder everyday?----i think it's the combination of this coming finals week and well---just being me...wala talagang magawa...anything to distract me from hitting the books...what's up with the weather these days?!!! even my mood swings are no longer swinging...they're intergalactic almost in their drama...ahahay!!!

now that i have someone to share a part of my life with i realize a few things:

1. your friends either approve of you or they give you a pained expression (luckily i belong to the former)
2. my sarcasm is now in full force...a spice of life
3. i sometimes play with my bf's emotions...childish? sure...but sometimes i do it just for the heck of it...life is more interesting that way...our late night conversations now have a topic to focus on
4. my friends are getting bitchier (i know, the word doesn't exist...somebody sue Mr. Webster please)....but when you're surrounded by young, ambitious, would-be lawyer girlfriends...you get to ask yourself this question---"are they a reflection of me?"----hell, yeah!!!
5. one of the joys of blogging is when you're friends start to blog too....she doesn't only seem funny when i'm with her...but she really is!!! check out PrettyCrabbyLucy....she's hilarious!!!
6. and finally, i'm feeling law school these days...the pains...the joys...and the curses...i'm definitely "in"

The questions in my life right now

Has love found me?
Is this love or just infatuation?
How do I know if this is the man who is right for me, right now?
How does one really ever know?
Is taking a chance at love a risk I can take?
Would I fall hard and learn to see life in a different way because of him?
Or am I just delusional?

AAARGGGGGHHHHHH….love can certainly wreck havoc in

one’s well-ordered but monotonous life.

Someone please give a line or two....what's love gotta do?

Missing Bamboo, Having Harry, Feeling the Law and Death

I was not only excited, but I was dreaming of Bamboo for a whole month since the day I learned Bamboo was dropping by here in Iloilo. I was excited about taking cool pictures of the guys and sending them in their yahoo group. I was counting the days and I was literally feeling giddy about the whole thing---but on the last minute the universe suddenly turned its wicked charms on me and decided to piss my engines off! As usual, the culprit in my life is the back breaking load in law school! Sometimes life can be cruel!

I’m still pissed about the whole thing. I really am. I’m holding on to my grudge.

PANAWAGAN SA BAMBOO: BALIK KAYO NG ILOILO ULIT!!!! ALSO, PLEASE MAKE SURE YOUR GIG WOULD BE ON A SATURDAY NIGHT. I have classes Monday to Saturday and it all usually ends at 8 or 8:30 in the evening.

But then the universe gives you a break----this time it was buying the whole set of Harry Potter books. Ok, so I’ve seen the movies but haven’t read a single word of the book---sue me. My sister was excited about the whole thing so I joined in the hoopla. It’s not much really---I would have been excited about having the 100 world classics in my book collection but what the heck right? You have to start somewhere. Oh yeah—I started with J.R.R. Tolkien’s books already! Hee hee

Then, as I was reading the blog of Jas I learned of the death of Chico from Kapatid. So sad, he will be missed.

Anyway, I just love reading about Jas’ blogs!!!! Sa kanya lang ako humahagilap ng mga bagong balita tungkol kay Kawayan. The chances of me meeting him somewhere is nada!!!! It’s a sad fact that I will have to live with for the rest of my beautiful days---grabeh!

Tanong lang---why does God create a man that makes a girl’s heart melt and give distance between them seem unbearable? Is it karma of my past life? The wall that I will have to cross over with—the bridge I have to cross---the river I have to swim into---the mountain I have to climb---the canvass I have to start on? Even my dab on poetry sucks, cliché!

P.S. Lino Cayetano is getting cuter every time I see him on TV. May girlfriend na kaya siya? Hee heee

BUSY BEE
 
Some law school students ask themselves, "Kailangan pa ba yang i-memorize?"

Ako/Me? "How do I divide myself?"

I barely blog anymore,
I don't do anything else but study the law,
and I still don't have a lovelife (Kahit steady date man lang).

Life sucks.

 

LAYERS UPON LAYERS

LAYER ONE:
- Name: Rons
- Birth date: 27th of February
- Birthplace: Iloilo City
- Current Local: Iloilo
- Eye Color: Black
- Hair Color: black
- Height: 5’1
- Righty/Lefty: Righty
- Zodiac Sign: Pisces

LAYER TWO: -
Shoes you wore today: Tennis shoes
- Weakness: Book Sales
- Fears: Heights
- Perfect Pizza: Great Toppings

LAYER THREE:
- Most overused phrase: Hay!
- First thoughts waking up: Can I sleep some more?
- Best physical feature: Nonexistent
- Bedtime: After 12
- Most missed memory: Love life

LAYER FOUR: -
Love Interest: Kawayan De Guia!!!!!!

LAYER FIVE:
- Smoke: Nope
- Take a shower: Everyday
- Do you think you've been in love: Yeah! With Kawayan
- Want to go to college: Finished!
- Like(d) HS: Fave
- Want to get married: Basta si Kawayan, kahit ngayon na!!!
- Believe in yourself: Sure
- Play an instrument: Organ

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
- Drank alcohol: Nope
- Smoked: Nah
- Done a drug: Nope
- Gone to the mall?: At least 3x a week
- Eaten an entire box of oreos?: Not yet
- Eaten sushi: No
- Been on stage: No
- Gone skating: No
- Thought of Kawayan: As sure as the sun rises and sets!!!!

LAYER SEVEN:
Ever...
- Played a game that required removal of clothing:No
- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No
- Been caught "doing something": stupid? sure
- Been called a tease: Never

LAYER EIGHT:
- Do you hope to be married: someday
- Describe your Dream Wedding: Basta ang groom si Kawayan
- How do you want to die: Having the man who loves me tell me that life has been sweet with me around in his life…haaaay

LAYER NINE:
- Drugs taken illegally: None
- CDs that I own: alin dun?!
- Tattoos: No
- Things in my past that I regret: Too many to be remembered

Make Me Smile, Pretty Please?!

One of the simple things that can make me giddy with excitement is when I receive e-mails from people I don't know. From fans of Kawayan, bloggers I randomly leave a comment on and from strangers that refuse to be identified. I don't know if some of them are just fooling around but nevertheless I'm thrilled. May nagbabasa nga ng blog ko! Yippeee!

Here's a Buddhist wisdom I came across with:

Fleeting is this world
Growth and decay its very nature
Things spring to being and again they cease
Happy the marvel of them and the peace.

My take on this? Find joy in the simplest of things.

My parents find joy everytime one of their orchids in our little garden would bloom...they love and openly admire the subtle look/beauty of a potted plant.

A friend of mine finds a reason to smile the whole day just by getting a glimpse of her crush. For some, finding a bargain like a t-shirt for 50 pesos.

In the grand scheme of things, the cheapest and the simplest things in life means the most. Have you ever heard of the expression, "Less is More?"

Mine is simply creating memories with family, friends and most especially with my doggies. He he he he SMILE